🍁 Transparent

It silently kills inside.

At some point of my life where i thought everything has changed.

From happiness to heartbreak.

From being heartbreak to denial.

From denial to acceptance.

"I'm okay"

"No worries"

"I'll be fine"

People probably think that i wasn't being honest to myself.

But uhm little did you know that 

Our mind is actually the one who controls our behaviour?

It is not about i lied to myself.

But I'm trying my best to not lose what i have right now.

"Life is hard, isn't it?"

Indeed, it is hard.

There was a time where i think;

"it is okay to convince myself that everything's gonna fine"

I'm not lie to myself.

But all i did is for myself to always learn that;

Behind someone's action, there must be reason.

I'm afraid of losing, so i choose to be feed my mind with positivity.

At this stage of my life, i know that some people come and go but that's fine and life must go on. Convincing myself that "it's okay" isn't a lie but that's how i control myself. I can't control people's mind so choose to control mine. 

I know for what had happened is actually silently kills me inside but if i look at the positive side, I learned new behaviour that exist; "Being transparent will hurt but at least they're being honest".

-tims.