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Sunday, July 23, 2017

Today was a fairytale.

When you feel like wanna cry, then just cry.
Just bcs you're different, that doesn't mean you're weird.  
Just bcs people left you, it doesn't mean they dislike you.
Just bcs no one cares about you, you're alone in this world.
Just bcs people said you're ugly, it doesn't mean you're ugly.
Just bcs you're not bright, doesn't mean there's no hopes for you
Just bcs you said you're lonely, you have to shut yourself all the day.
Just bcs you feel tired, it doesn't mean you already lost your strength.
Just bcs you said you're brave enough, you don't feel scared to the lizard.
Just people don't like you, doesn't mean all of the people in this entire world don't like you.

Look, people wouldn't stop judge and condemn you.
Take all of those things as a passion for you to grow up and built your self-confidence.
Grow up and live your fairytale.
And never let those fairytale stay in your dream.

Work on it and live happily!



Well hello moon!
I have too many precious time to write something in you heheheh. 
So here is only a self reminder for my dearself. Okay the reasons why i write this notes in bcs there's one guy keep calling me "gemuk" "itam" and blablaablaa. hahahah it's funny when people judge you like that. But who cares? Live your life! Never take those negative vibes seriously butttt if you really think you're like what they've described about you, try make some changes butt still never take those words seriously!! It really gonna hurt yourself if you take it seriously. Just take those words as your passion to built your trueself. And one more thing, you have to remember that if someone that you lovessss say like that, it means they want you to change. hahaha mu pahe dok? dia nak kau kurus hahahah. 

tapi kalau nak awek cun melecun kurus macam model bukan aku faham? hahahah okay i tak marah cuma saje tulis camni sebab nak built self confidence balik semula huhuhu 

So goodnight and live your fairytale peeps! x

Friday, July 21, 2017

So What's the Next Mistakes?

"Love and to be Loved"
It's part of basic human needs in life.

But bear in your mind,
Not everything that you "love", you'll get it.

Sometimes you might have it, but then you gotta let it go.
Sometimes you might not have it now, but later.. you'll get it.
Sometimes you have it now, and still hold into it until now.
And sometimes you didn't get it, and still not gonna have it.

That's what we call "the possibility in life".

When you get it, but lose it.
Allah want to test you bcs He knows you can face it. 
So stay calm and face it.

When you lose it, but suddenly you got what you want.
That means, Allah just want you to be patient.
Stay patient now and you'll get your happiness in future.

When you have it, and still hold into it.
That means, Allah already give what you want.
And it's your job to keep it.
Hold it tightly, and never let it go.

When you lose it, and will never have it.
That means, Allah want to grand you something better than your plan.
Allah want you to stay patient for now and trust His plan.

You see,
People might have face all of those possibilities in life.
But that doesn't mean you're making mistakes in life.

It's not a mistakes.
But it's a lesson.

We all human, making mistakes to gain some lessons in life.

So here,
WHAT'S THE NEXT MISTAKES? 

Does repeating the same mistakes is included as a "lesson"?

When you repeat the same mistakes in your life,
It means that.. you don't even learn from your past ((mistakes)).
And it's similar to, "i'm sorry but i will do it again".

SO NO SORRY IS ACCEPTED

But you see, we all human.
Living as "hamba Allah".
We live not only for what we needs
But we all human live, to get His bless.

When people say sorry, accept it.
We not even pure enough to argue for their mistakes.
Bcs we make mistakes too. 
We not even know what they'd faced in their life.
So just accept it.

Saying "i'm sorry" and "i've forgiven you" might not be easy.
All you need is "sincerity".
Bcs saying "i'm sorry" and "i've forgiven you" without "sincerity",
It's like for nothing.

And that's...
Your next mistakes.

I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart and stop spreading bad things.

And one more thing,
Don't forget to clear your mind.. "why you're sorry and forgiving".

Don't repeat the same mistakes.
It's a reminder for me and all of you.




Saturday, July 15, 2017

Quotes of The Day!

To grow up, first you have to remove the dark sight from your past and start a new fresh beginning in your life!

The Best Version of You.

I am the happiest girl ever that has grown up a lot from my past life.

But HOW? and WHY?

It comes when you put your smile on your face
It's like you telling everyone how happy you are
And everytime you put the smile
My heart hitting me so fast! Like i can't breath.

It comes when you talk with me endlessly
By telling me, "only you know about this&that"
It's makes me feels like i'm the only one who knows everything about you
I kept the secret, lock my mouth and shut the secret into my mind.

It comes when you hit my phone's screen with something like...
"Good morning pretty" 
"Hello, my love"
"Imissyouu"
"Let's meet"
My heart can jump out of the window
Smiling endlessly
Like my mumsie thought i'm craziest daughter hiks.

It comes when you suddenly come from my back
Close my eyes with your big hand
Ask me, "cuba teka siapa"
I overjoy and shout, "it's charlie!"
Every moment when you surprised me, i feel i'm into you.

It comes when i started open my heart
Welcoming you into my life
Tell my parents about you
Be with you wherever i am

Every single moment had begin when the fiirst time i saw "The Best Version of You".

It started when...

You hide nothing from me 
Remind me that i'm safe when i'm with you
Doing something stupid just to protect me
Pick me up when i was down
Run to the mall just to pick the stuff that i've left
Scold me just bcs i don't want to take the medicine
Call me in the morning so i won't left by the bus

So,yes.
The Best Version of You changed me a lot
Bcs having you in my life is like having a superb guy that i ever met.

Thankyouu for comming and you're unwelcome for leaving.

goodnight! x

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

Appreciate Post For Ika




When i look at your face,
I feel happiness.

When i look into your eyes,
I feel the pain faded.

When i talk to you,
I feel calm.

When i hug you,
I feel warm.

When i was at my lowest point,
I feel you in my soul.

When i'm with you,
I thanked to Allah for giving me this kind of friend.

The friend who lift me up when i was down.
The friend who listen to my probs till 3a.m.
The friend who dance with me without feel shame during riadah.
The friend who laugh so hard when i'm trying my best to use "aku" "kau".
The friend who help me reply those irritating text during recess time.
The friend who become over protecting me when somebody hurts me.
The friend who always entertain me just to make sure i'm okay.

The friend i never knew that we could be this close.

Ika,
I do forget your birthday was yesterday.
But that doesn't mean i've forgotten you.
Bcs you're one of the unforgettable people that i've welcomed into my life and i will never allowed to say goodbye in my life.

Study well there and keep remember this cute little girl in your precious life :)

ps: kalini wish panjang sikit sbgai denda lupa birthday dia smlm plus i dun have phone lah nak ws or post our happiness in ig huhu sorry from the bottom of my heart!


















These the only part of our sem 1 unforgettable memories.
Sincerely,
tima sangat comel x

Thursday, July 6, 2017

Study! Studyy! Studyyy!



"when you feel low, get up and face the reality bcs no one is going to pick you up unless you, yourself grab yourself and start it over again".
-maa, 2017

Assalamualaikum & hi readers!

It's been so long since i left my blogging life. I'm not missing to write or what but somehow i just need some space to speak up my mind. Yes, my mind that full of scars from past but getting heal day by day. 

So, i begin my story with a quote that written by myself or maybe there's someone else who had written it but still, i made the sentence that used to relate my precious life. Well, now my point is.... 

have you ever been through your lowest point in life?

Here the story, based on my past notes that i've written in my unprivate diary which some i've hidden it for some reasons... i've been through the most tragic hectic life which i lost my own best friend and the one that i love the most when i was in from 5 on July, 2014. I don't know how lowest i was on that time and it was the first & last time that i'm gonna make myself been through it. So what do i make to not let myself feel low again? Here some notes;

1. Study
2. Study
3. Study
4. Study 
. . .

Deer peeps,
Why do you have to put the burden on yourself and ruin your precious life just bcs of stupidity thinggyyysz?

Don't waste your entire lifetime just bcs of your past.
Don't blame yourself of what had happened in your life
Don't keep the dark sight deep down inside your glory mind
Don't let your precious life gone just bcs of . . . .

You know one thing that my parents teach me? Once ibu said, "kalau bukan awak yang ubah hidup awak, then siapa lagi?".  Ibu used to be my fav counsellor and best friend that i ever have till now and ayah? Well, ayah is the one who thought me a lot about how to be "real human". Like srsly, ayah really reallyyyy thought me a lot on how to be a real human or else i am not me right now hehe.

So back to my main point, for those who been through those hard time during your "study's life", to back to your reality is... keep study and never stop finding "ILMU". Bcs you know what, with "ilmu" you can change your entire life. If now you're losing your best friend or even boy/girlfriend, show them that you're strong enough to face everything without them. Prove them that they all are such a loser who had let go something that they won't get after this.

So dear,
keep your chin up
face the reality
thow away your dark sight

MOVE ON.

Even though it's hard as hell, but trust me... that hardest thing in your life will bring up something that you will seriously gonna thank from your past. 

goodnight! x 

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