unprivate diary.

Well hello people!  So what's the topic today? It is about grief, denial & truth . If and only if you follow up my unprivate diary journey, you probably know that I'd gone thru six different degrees in life where the post that I've talked about it had been retrieved to draft. But nah, it's not important at all right now 😌 UNPOPULAR FACT: THERE IS STILL GRIEF INVOLVED WITH LETTING A TOXIC PERSON GO. I agreed with this post 💯!! I admit that until now, me & myself still think about "where does it goes wrong?". But yet, I can't just let myself keep drowning in that feeling. I choose to learn to let it go bcs i guess that is the only best way to make me feel better.  Besides, at this moment i admit that i felt a lil bit lost bcs currently i involved myself with the annual camp for two weeks and yup, he is here too. I admit that i took time to blend with people around me. I really took time to tell myself to not ruin the walls that I've

It silently kills inside. At some point of my life where i thought everything has changed. From happiness to heartbreak. From being heartbreak to denial. From denial to acceptance. "I'm okay" "No worries" "I'll be fine" People probably think that i wasn't being honest to myself. But uhm little did you know that  Our mind is actually the one who controls our behaviour? It is not about i lied to myself. But I'm trying my best to not lose what i have right now. "Life is hard, isn't it?" Indeed, it is hard. There was a time where i think; "it is okay to convince myself that everything's gonna fine" I'm not lie to myself. But all i did is for myself to always learn that; Behind someone's action, there must be reason. I'm afraid of losing, so i choose to be feed my mind with positivity. At this stage of my life, i know that some people come and go but tha