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Dear moon,  I don’t know how to start it but all I can say that I’m weak like seriously weak. Lately, I can’t sleep properly. I tried so hard to sleep well but I just can’t and couldn’t find any proper reasons for this thing. Sometimes I just wanna shout and cry bcs im too tired but why I couldn’t sleep? I need to have enough sleep since I got lots of chores to do on the next day. There’s one day, I’m too tired and already felt sleepy on 9pm. So, I make up my mind to sleep and the last time before I finally can close my eyes, I looked into my watch… and it’s 9.37pm. I felt nothing and I guess I sleep well on that time. But time flies so slow.. for sudden, I woke up on 11.55pm. LIKE SERIOUSLY? I still felt tired but why? Why I already woke up? I need to go to sleep back! But after few hours struggling to close my eyes… I still can’t sleep. It’s like… hm I can’t describe this feeling. And you know what, the day keep repeating again and again until now. I’m tired but only could sleep af

"Love and to be Loved" It's part of basic human needs in life. But bear in your mind, Not everything that you "love", you'll get it. Sometimes you might have it, but then you gotta let it go. Sometimes you might not have it now, but later.. you'll get it. Sometimes you have it now, and still hold into it until now. And sometimes you didn't get it, and still not gonna have it. That's what we call "the possibility in life". When you get it, but lose it. Allah want to test you bcs He knows you can face it.  So stay calm and face it. When you lose it, but suddenly you got what you want. That means, Allah just want you to be patient. Stay patient now and you'll get your happiness in future. When you have it, and still hold into it. That means, Allah already give what you want. And it's your job to keep it. Hold it tightly, and never let it go. When you lose it, and will never have it. That means, Allah want

When i look at your face, I feel happiness. When i look into your eyes, I feel the pain faded. When i talk to you, I feel calm. When i hug you, I feel warm. When i was at my lowest point, I feel you in my soul. When i'm with you, I thanked to Allah for giving me this kind of friend. The friend who lift me up when i was down. The friend who listen to my probs till 3a.m. The friend who dance with me without feel shame during riadah. The friend who laugh so hard when i'm trying my best to use "aku" "kau". The friend who help me reply those irritating text during recess time. The friend who become over protecting me when somebody hurts me. The friend who always entertain me just to make sure i'm okay. The friend i never knew that we could be this close. Ika, I do forget your birthday was yesterday. But that doesn't mean i've forgotten you. Bcs you're one of the unforgettable people that i've welcomed into