The real happiness 💞

At some point in life, i started to wonder... "What is actually the real happiness".

So today, i make up my mind and started to think that the real happiness is when you see the "good" in every situation that you go through. I know it sounds lame but we all human never escape from doing mistakes and most of the time, we are the sinner but it just happened in different way. It is just how we define it and how we learn from it. I bet you who read this, you probably have that one experience where you're regrets and hoping to turn back time just to fix it. Isn't it? 

It was awful and hardly believe we all still gotta move on to the next stage in life. 

Frankly honest, i started to make the experience that i go through before as the lesson for me to live now. I don't wanna live in that life anymore so i choose to distance myself from those who remind me of my past. I probably lied when everytime i said i already forget it. Major NO, I DIDN'T FORGET IT AT ALL but I started to learn to live without it. It really took time but it is worth for my lifetime.

Then move on to the next stage.

I started to see that not everyone is happy with me. Apart from that, i choose to distance myself for once again. I can sense that "you're not being honest with me so why should i talk to you?". Then slowly, i can see that these people are living fine with me so why should i bother? 

I'm not being paranoid by being overthinking about all those people that exist in my life but all i do right now is; if I'm not happy with it, then i should learn to let it go so that i can feel the real happiness. To me, why should i bother the negative energy that only bring me down while i can slowly learn to live without it?

No, I'm not pusing people away but uhm... I'm just tired and all i want is me to be good to myself.

Slowly, I'll get used to it.

Thankyou for existing and you aren't welcome to ruin my inner peace again🌼