Believe in yourself ✨

As time flies by; meeting new people, some stay and some walk away. I don't know it is just my experience or everyone gone thru the same thing but what i can sure is, we all go through those phases in life differently. Indeed, He tested us according to our limits and strength.

Honestly, some experience bring me joy but some uhm how i wish not to remember. 

As time flies by; i started to doubt towards people around me. "What is your motive to exist in my life?" I keep thinking about those unnecessary thoughts until my brain stuck for a moment. No matter how hard i tried not think about it, i will end up think about it over and over again. 

Is that normal?

As time flies by; i forgotten who i used to be. For almost 20 years i live by myself without you. I remember those days where everything was fine without you. I know who am i and i know how cheerful i used to be. But yet, everything started to fade away. Slowly, i tried to remember everything. I stumbled, cried hardly in silence. 

As time flies by; i started to think that i should have someone to talk. Someone that could understand the silent moment in my brain. Someone that will help me to find the better version of me.

I met that person. I talked to that person. Honestly, i did cried. My tears automatically burst out when my mind started to arrange the easiest phrase to be understood.

I did it.

I did explain everything.

"I believe that one day, you'll thank to your past. I can't tell you what you need to do bcs i want you to think what is actually you should do. I want you to believe in yourself and start to focus on your current life. Allah uji sebab awak mampu. Always remember that thing. This is your part and you are responsible to your own life" -Pz

I barely remember the real sentence but this what i received. I feel so blessed to Allah for letting me know this person. 

So to conclude everything; i can say that "Believe in myself is part of my responsibilities, move forward, focus on my current life and love myself beyond anything else is part of my jihat" 💞